Solutions
You can't improve a situation until you improve yourself. Since you have to start somewhere, don't shrug your shoulders. Plug away. Define the problem. Develop an awareness that change is necessary for solutions to evolve. Solutions come to those who take the personal responsibility of discovering them. Once your solution is discovered, act on your own desire to create a better you. We do a disservice to ourselves and those around us when we ignore problems and fail to stand up and help solve them.^ That is stolen from "The Daily Boost" which our Marketing Director, Ryan McGrath forwards to all the Intramed Plus staff just about every day. I like a good affirmation and this daily column is full of those. This one appealed to me particularly because it is a theme I reckon I need to reallllllly delve into...my deep-dream-self dredged up the topic again this morning...I guess I was nudged into sub-conscious conversation by my excesses last night and then brought to my full conscious awareness as the minutes ticked by and I didn't go back to sleep and I tried to recover the word I woke up to ringing in my head but lost as I explored the notion of "how do you want to conduct the rest of your life?". Again.
It is the wee hours that call forth these self explorations, isn't it? I go to sleep happy and content and as the night passes I drift down into my submerged storehouse of missteps and misdeeds and left un-dones and come awake with the memory of my various sins as raw and fresh as a crow's breakfast. Because I have to live with myself I immediately plan a reform. By noon my resolves are generally forgotten and by bedtime I am absolved again. Thank God it isn't that way every night. Usually just the nights I give myself too much food, wine and such! Like last night. And truthfully, the night before also...which was why I collected that Daily Boost. It spoke to my morning intention to do good going forward.
"How do you want to conduct your life? Do you have a code of conduct? Are you the conductor of a great symphony that is your life story? Are you leading the band in a tune of someone else's composition? Or are you more like the conductor on a train- you ride along on it and steer and slow and speed it up but that train has its own power and is only affected by your choices and plans if that train is working right and is properly attended?" These were the questions that cost me that ringing word.
But the bigger question is intact: what is your standard? How do you conduct yourself?
If I am honest, I am not living up to my expectations. Yet I spend much more of my energy thinking about the conduct of others and how if they would just do what I want, when I want, how I want I would be happier and my life would be better as theirs surely would too. That is the correction in course I wish to make. The one that chooses to take the higher ground myself. To follow the healthier path without thinking who's head of me or behind. To take and stay steady on the right track.
